bottle neck

at least there's a bottle.

or maybe i should have a bottle to get through the bottle neck.

you keep telling yourself that it is good to have something to look after to in life.

but what if.

what if. i can't even put them in words. it's too dreadful.

okay, what if it makes me to quit doing what i enjoy doing the most?

dilemma, dilemma.

why is life so hard~~~

i'll get through this either way, and probably won't give a fuck about it 10 years after.

still, i don't feel good about if now.

must be caused by the much delayed period and autumn.