massive attack

not the group, but literally the massive attack. came today.

i thought i wouldn't feel a thing, yet i thought wrong.  after all, i'm only human., not a woman with an accelerator as my heart. 

but still, as if i want to test how much my heart can handle, i made phone calls after phone call, to reassure myself that a will be shipped away to a proper place. to a distant place, to a city i might not even set foot in ever. 

the human remains are so easy, yet difficult to erase.

so bye bye blackbird.  wish you could find a corner of your own in this hopeless world.