gazing

at my own naked body
wrinkles crawling on the face
dead skins flaking down from the elbows and knees
soggy breasts hanging down as if they have grown in size
no they are just soggy
waist line remains visible so are the flat tummy

underneath the skin there is a source of reserved energy
if only it can be released and channeled in the right way
without hurting others
without hurting myself

the draggy skin doesn't mean the inner self has to be worn out and down
not all the time
this isn't normal
i'm not alright
this isn't normal